Days Of Glory!!!!!!!!!!!!

The clock strikes 12.... the roads outside are empty.... because i m talking to you about 12 o clock at night...... i am in my room fiddling with my laptop.... a sudden msg flashes on the screen.... its Mr. Lee ( i cant use real names because if they find out they would most certainly kill me)... he wants to know if i want some tea... i see a blank screen in front of me so you can guess that i dont ususally have any work... so i take him on his offer.... In the mean while i create a playlist of songs i wanted to hear..... and i let them play... it has everything from metallica to pink floyd...... and everything in between.... My roomate practically jumped when i told him about the tea idea.... guess he also wanted a break from whatever he was doing......
By the time we had got to the kitchen a whole group had gathered wanting nothing more than tea and a long conversation..... wel i can provide the tea but the long conversation wasnt my cup of tea....
Ok poor joke i know.... anyways tea was made.... and by this time the song Back In Black came up and i knew that i had made the right combo... Mr. Lee my roommate and me sat in my room.... hot tea mugs on the table and emotions on full swing...... these conversations have very little real context but the subject matter is huge...
Yes it can be politics to who had sex with whom...... out of our minds and out of our wits we speak our heart out..... and we try to find out the solution to any problem.... even cancer if we had our way in this world......but thank god we dont..... yes otherwise a lot of people would be in pain i guess....
Wel on this night it was al about ethics morality and philosophy.... Aristotle would have stabbed himself twice and then hung himself from the ceiling fan if he heard us....... I mean we are that bad at this but it doesnt matter to us..... In this smal world of ours we rule.... everyday and everlong....
Mr. Lee obviously is the most provacative amongst us all and he threw some ideas on the table.... and we just had to agree.... then out of natural habit i raised the question about life and i wish i didnt.... because at this point my roommate reached a breaking point and yes he really did want to break somthing........ so his choice was my head but then i threatened him with a manslaughter charge so he backed down......
But to tell you the truth in the last 3 yrs i have seen every part of life.... and i have soaked it all in.... i mean through tears blood and laughter i have shared a different life in this place..... its been rough for sometime but for the most part of it , it has been a life altering experience... i have meet with all kinds of people.... seen their different points of veiw about the simplest of things and i have learned a lot..... Maybe i am sitting with a frown on my face but around these guys you cant hold that for much long....
Being in a boys hostel you dont have much privacy so you include everyone in your life.... so you include everyone in it..... make them a part of your life and you can almost definately see that you have grown..... but enough about these serious parts........ lets get back to the fun parts...

Have you seen someone washing clothes at 1 o clock in the morning or shave at around that time... have u made maggi at 3 o clock in the night and only got to eat half of it coz another one f your friends was going hungry..... i knw these things sound silly enough but that is what i call life... the real essence of it ......
I dont know if you had these same experiences or not but i do suggest you to try once.... trust me its an awesome life.......

That night ended for us at 4 o clock in the morning.... but its nights like these that i will miss the most when i get out of here.... i wil remember the faces and the smiles.... but i just hope i get these experiences back........

Strings and screw ups.......

Have you really seen a really old guitar that keeps its old world charms and still has that unusual quality to create some amazing music......
Wel i can say so about my guitar ..... its damm old and a little rusty but it had that usual quality that whenever i take it to my hand it just begs me to be played the way it should be....
Well i am no Jimi Hendrix but i can pull of a few leads and a few rhythms....
So here is what happened......
One afternoon after a day of sleeping in the class ( which is my permanent habit) i came to my room.... al day the sum shone with al its brightness but now there was a light cloud cover that covered the serene blue sky during the day....... wel it was cool by now but i was sweating like hell.... so i cleaned up, had my lunch and just sat down on my bed.... the lights were turned off and i felt too bored to do anything.... i was alone in my room and i knew my roomate wouldn't be back for a long time..... so i saw my old trusted buddy in front of me and picked it up..... AND THE JOURNEY BEGAN...........
I tried as hard as i could to tune the old thing in to the right tune........ and it obeyed me and came to life....... Sometimes i feel that it has a mind of it own and it wil do whatever it wants to do.... no matter how much i try to bring it to submission.....
I was thinking of a playlist in my head and just trying to think of the songs that could comfort me at that point of time...... I chose some light stuff not getting into something heavy rite away ..... i thought i would progressively go into that mood and so wil change the playlist according to that... And so it began...
PINK FLOYD had always been a favourite of mine and i started with the gods themselves..... the song ' wish you were here' put me into the mood i wanted to be in.... a semi floating drug induced state that i longed for so long.... Thats the beauty of this band.... it can put you in the place you want to be.... a place where there are no boundaries, no barriers, no one to hold you back, for the length of the song you are free to be whoever you want to be..... Or you can be just a simple guy who just enjoys gud music,.... wel again my thoughts drowned me.... i reflected on the time when Pink floyd used to do live concerts and i could only imagine how it would have been .... i wasnt there but i wish i was..... The issues that they handled with such delicate words makes you wonder how can anyone really write such songs that last for generations on end.... just listen to them once and surely you wil fall in love..... They can soften your heart and they can start a revolution..... thats how powerful there words are and thats how relevant they are.....
They took a guitar in their hands rather than guns..... and thats how you start a revolution....
My thoughts floated to Bob Marley, Jimi Hendrix, Led Zeppelin, The Doors and everyone who started the revolution of rock back in its haydays... I salute them all and i wish i could join them back then......
Anyways my next song was ' stairway to heaven' by Led Zeppelin...... An awesome song with some awesome leads..... and some great lyrics..... I got into the mood.... and my fingers were loose to play the tracks...... again i was in a trance and it didnt really matter who was doing what...all i knew was that i had my guitar and nothing else really mattered.... i blocked out the external world and i totally sunk into the world of music.... and i knew one thing ... i wouldnt get out soon....
What started out as a few minute session ended up being a few hour jam session.... i didnt realise that until i saw that the sun had set and the day had ended,,,...... ...
Anyways my next song was a step higher.... 'Fade to black' by Metallica...... this was another band i respected like anything........ they along with diamondhead and judas priest introduced the world to heavy metal... My favourite genre in the entire rock fraternity..... I could go on al day on this topic and that is not what i am going to do now.... with fade to black and breaking the law i got into the head banging mood..... this was followed up by Iron Maiden with Dream of Mirrors... and a few others..... i ended with a good note a new song by a relatively new band.... On a softer side Three Doors Down with Here Without You.... it reminded me of someone whose name i cant mention....
Then i woke up with a phone call from my mom and decided to end the session there.... as i had to do laundry..... ya sucks doesnt it......
But with this session i regained my lost touch with my passion and i felt a new zeal to carry on with it even to a further extent....
I had touched the guitar after 3 months and it felt like a warm summers breeze.... and i was in heaven.... peaceful and safe......

Morning Bliss......

Late night coffee..... yes thats sounds really freaky but just try it once ..... coffee at 2 in the morning and some heavy metal.... really makes a good combination.... but it has its side effects.... yes...
sudenly the world makes sense to you and really you do get to know why your life is the way it is.....
but trust me that is not what i got this night....
i opened the kitchen room door and it made a creaky sound like the doors that forms a central point in any horror movie..... but my kitchen is nothing short of that..... wel any how i made the coffee..... the reason for this coffee was that i wanted to study for my upcoming exams... wel yes its strange but it happens rarely that i get these spurts of motivation to take the books and actually read...
Well anyways i made the coffee by making as less noise as i can..... coffee is no good without a ciggarete... so i lighted one.... sometimes out of habit or just sheer boredom i walk the passage in my house .... between my room and the kitchen.... wel on this unforgiving night i just went near the door and stood there.... and i listened intently.........
One of my roomates was playing Unforgiven 2 by metallica....... The combination of coffee, smoke,a still night and metallica created a different soul inside me..... i dont know what had happened to me then but i just got carried away into that still black night.....
I stood in front of the gate ...... i took a puff out of my cigarette and i just tried to listen to anything but all i could hear was the silence of the night, the stillness of the dark world that lay outside these doors....
i wanted to go for a walk but the door was locked.... so i just stood there and floated away..... to some distant memories of the past, present and future..... yes thats the problem with me ... i think too much about stuff that shouldn't even bother me.....and i didnt wake up til my hand was almost burnt by the cigarette.......
And i found out that my coffee had got cold...... anyhow i drank it without giving much thought....
washed my hands and face and decided to get down to some serious business..... so i turned on some music and tried to solve some chemical equations..... my roommate was asleep by now and the clock had already struck 3 in the morning........i decided to work for an hour and get some sleep......
That hour went quite normally and i did get some work done.....
finally i decided to get some sleep.......
But something happened...... i couldn't sleep..... the room was dark and there was just a faded light that was coming through the window of the street light outside.... In this partly lit room i could see the days i had spent and the sleepless nights i had..... i got up.... opened my comp.... just the flash of the screen light took me by suprise and my eyes slowly adjusted to the light.... i jsut wanted some sort of noise because i could't really hear anything other than the sound of my breath..... so i turned on some music, watched a few videos and just tried to while the time away... i didnt look at the time but by the time i realised it was almost 5 o clock and the crows had started their usual banter.....
i heard the fiant call for the morning prayers in the nearby mosque.... then the soundboxes of the nearby mandir opened up and it played a sweet morning raga.....
I realised that as my day ended some else had just begun theirs,.... it was cool... a lite breeze had picked up and the sun was in the horizon.....
i slowly went to bed and closed my eyes.... and i just fell into a deep sleep......
It could be the morning Namaz or the soft gentle prayer or the morning breeze that had brought some peace within me... and it helped me sleep......

I found peace for that one day but my soul is ever so tormented.......