Devotion eludes
And in sadness I lumber
In my own ashes I am standing without a soul
She wept and whispered: "I know..."
so am i just supposed to let it go.... and do nothing.... or hold on to the fleeting glimpse of hope and build a fire out of that.... Somehow i dont really know the answer to this... Maybe its right in front of me.... maybe i just cant see it.... maybe i am too blind......
Just a few months back these questions really banged my head for an answer..... and after all this time i know that there is no really clear cut answer... So i just follow my heart in this.... Ya i know i am as stubborn as i could be..... and maybe to some people i like being in misery.... but i am like this, sorry.....
Can anyone really tel me the clear cut defination of love ...... Is it like the ghost that eludes us or is it the thing that we want to grasp on to when all hope seems lost.... what is the correct defination to it.... coz i have no clue... where to begin and where to end.... I have had my share of relation related trauma or should i say debacles..... is it some kind of dream that never gets fulfilled.... the dream that never sees the light of day... always in the darkness , brewing in our hearts for al eternity and when do we know who was right and who was wrong..... coz everytime u try to grab hold of it , like sand it just keeps slipping off... the tighter ur grip the more fluid it gets.....
My friends tell me on a regular basis that this love is not right and its just another part and parcel of life.... you made a mistake and somehow you have to get out of it.... but i ask you do you really want to let go of a dream that you have incubated in your heart for a very long time.... no matter how impossible that dream is.... would you back down from that dream jus because some people told you that it is impossible....
For me its something like that... its a dream... a dream that i see everynight... so i am afraid to sleep.... because in my timid mouse shaped heart that dream has been torn apart by razors, knifes, swords and anything sharp.......
I have been upset for days.... tried toreason any way i knew how to..... but its like gravity... you hate it cause it wont let you fly and you need it too cause you like the feeling of it...so i ask myself on a daily basis.... what are you doing and what is the outcome of this... and from some part of my heart( not brain)... cause you love her....
i ask you again.... what is love... what is this feeling that makes you miserable and happy at the same time..... makes you want to kill yourself and makes you want to do wonderful things at the same time.... i just dont knw...
If anyone has a clear answer to my problem do contact....
We walked into the night
Am i to bid you farewell
Why cant you see that i try
When every tear i shed
Is for you??...........
Love...reaches beyond magic, a music of it's own, with unfathomable power. You are a true poet in the making but it is only those who have experienced true love or have come close to it, can write like this. Very beautiful Shou, keep it up. Cheers!
ReplyDeleteevery heard a story of guy with no hair umm i mean no legs :)...chillax dude...life is a lesson u learn it when ur through(courtesy Limp BISCUIT)
ReplyDeletebuhow buhow..what a lame comment
ReplyDeleteWell, I really don't have the answer to your problems...I wud just be repeating what I wrote in payels' blog. Love gives happiness but for a very less time, it is about pleasure in pain.... it sounds masochistic enough, but isn't tht wht love is all abt?..anyways nice post..keep the words flowing...
ReplyDeletebut i ask you do you really want to let go of a dream that you have incubated in your heart for a very long time.... no matter how impossible that dream is.... would you back down from that dream jus because some people told you that it is impossible....
ReplyDeletePappu asks some serious questions i see..(high point of the post)...
ReplyDeletePhew....
ReplyDeleteIts been a very long time since ive read something like this(i havent read nething for a while...)
And by "like this" i mean,such a piece of confused yet convincing ode about love and its effects.But i cn realy empathise with you on certain aspects(esp d one abt being miserable yet feeling happy about it).
But iam still not sure about the dream thing.I am too shallow for dreams(I guess you are too...)
And i seriously think this is a drunk post....
i know who is it 4r........~~
ReplyDeleteLove is an irresistible desire to be irresistibly desired.~~
@lwayz rembr dz........it isnt luv that makez the world go round..... it is wot makes the ride worthwhile.....
may god bless u
ummm!!!cant say much abt love....but 1 thing i can say abt ur post....ITS AWESOME!!!
ReplyDeleteintense and true...depressing and beautiful...deceptive and alarming
ReplyDeletedude..u r confused.......love is nt a dream...its reality.....n u shud b prepared 4 d best n d worst..........
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